Hello home sweet home, good to be back writing unnecessary things to be stick on this blog as good thing to read in the future ahead. Well, I have been through good days recently where I was feeling at unease condition about three to four days surrounded with medical equipments and served with tasteless food. And I am about to write you my experience because I enjoyed each of them haha I literally cherish my moments dekat hospital because everything is just cool and this is my second time being admitted dalam keadaan mcm tak berapa rasa sakit when the actual medical record stated that I was at my dangerous condition haha tapi sumpah takdela sakit sangat, Alhamdulillah hehe. It all started masa tengah getting rest and laid my back on the sofa in my brother’s ward because he was admitted in the hospital. I felt the pain on my chest, it was torturing me and suffocated my respiratory path. Tapi tahan jelah, rasa macam takdela teruk sangat and I was acting okay sampailah at one point macam rasa kene cucuk from belakang badan to depan badan dengan something rough hahahah and I told my mom and dad hurried me to the clinic downstairs.

Do you guys ever watched cartoons where some characters have this moment like their heart pounded from inner body to the outer when they got nervous or butterflies in the stomach because of seeing someone they love? HAHAHA MY HEART FEELS THAT WAY, exactly that way. Tudung aku pakai pun mcm bergetar seiring dengan melodi jantung haha im not kidding because I also enjoyed watching my chest like naik turun naik turun. It doesn’t feel sick pun, cuma mcm apahal do takleh stop ahahaha amende yang nervous sangat ni? Lepastu I was diagnosed having dengue fever and SVT (fyi svt is when your normal heart beat sampai limit yang telebih normal, normal patutnya bawah 100 tapi my heart beat masa tu 160 140 mcm tu it got me scary la jugak) so they rushed me to hospital kpj kajang because they got specialist while the earlier hospital I went only can manage the dengue parts.

As I reached kpj, they brought me to the yellow emergency zone for check ups and all. The best part was during my time dekat red emergency zone. The nurses were all superb, laju gila buat keje tapi ada satu part tu ya allah kelabut (singkatan untuk kelam kabut) hahaha yknow, she managed to cucuk dekat tempat salah lepstu berdarah teruk my lengan sampai lantai hospital kene mop haha! Aku dahlah tengah cuak lepas doc explain that they gonna put medicine to stop my heartbeat sebab nak stabilkan balik dia punya kadar denyutan tau lepastu masa dorang nak cucuk ubat tu, doc tu boleh jerit kat nurse “ayyy apa awak buat ni?!?!” and he repeated that few times. Aku lek je tengok nurse tu cuak hahahah sambil tengah fikir how it feels like bila ubat tu dh diffuse haha am I going to pengsan and all?!?! And bila ubat tu diffuse, rasa macam khayal do lepastu nurse tu panggil panggil baru wake up like days after summer em apa dh berlaku ni haha. Terrific, jantung berhenti berdegup sekejap. Ugh siapa je tak rasa seram tapi aku cam lek je sebab theres no pain at all. Alhamdulillah.

Several hours later, baru doc pakar jantung sampai.

Tapi sambil tunggu doc pakar jantung tu sampai, cam aku kene relax relax la baring baring je and doctor yang manage accident and emergency tu keep pantau. He always get worried everytime aku tidur sebab dia takut la apa apa jadi dengan aku, tak bangun terus ke. HAHAHA MASALAHNYA AKU TAKTAHU NAK BUAT APA SO AKU TIDUR LAH. Hahahahha kelakar gila, ada satu part tu dia mcm senyum lebar gila cakap “you jangan panic okay, relax aje skrg ni, take a deep breath” while the exact thing is siapa patut relax skrg ni…………………………………………….

Lepastu daripada kene tolak dengan katil from yellow zone to red zone, sambil tu tempat aku locate dkt red zone tu, sebelah tu ada mcm an old man sesak nafas tau haha he was assisted by one of the Indian doctors. Bapak cool doctor tu! Dia datang mcm bagi command je untuk solve atuk yang tengah sesak nafas tu haha serious cool! Like 10 mins after that, old man tu mcm dh stable “OKAY TAK TOK?!?!” the doctor tends to jerit sebab atuk tu mcm tua tua pepekak. Hahaha but then the old man replied “Ha sedap dah” hahahaha indian doctor be like “HAH?! SENAK?!” and it goes old man again “Sedap dah bernafas” and the nurses interrupted “oooooooo” hahahaha. Aku kat sebelah yang jantung tengah berdegup lelaju ni pun tergelak adohai kelakar betul atuk ni. Nasib takde org pandang aku kalau tak bukan diagnosed SVT je mental health pun improper haha.

Okay near to 4 o’clock, nurses tolak aku masuk ICU haha it was terribly sad. Mcm, haih teruk sangat ke aku ni haha and the wires all around my body to monitor my heart beat whether it was in a good state or not. Cucuk cucuk takyah cakapla, rasa mcm nurse cucuk tu is very common. Datang je nak cucuk. Hm cedih. I was totally weak back then tapi cam everything was alright because Boy and Abah decided not to go home and tidur dekat Visitor’s Lounge sampaila subuh. Fuh, at least I can feel the company even from afar L

Bangun bangun je after that, I checked my phone. Loaded messages from friends and relatives hitted me up after they have been told by me, mum and dad about whats going on with me. And reading messages from friends almost teared me apart haha alahai pika sampai “weh patutla aku rasa mcm tak sedap hati malam tadi” and keep spamming words yang sayu sangat alahai mcm mak mak sangat kan? AHAHAHAHAHA kelakar tau tapi cam terharu nak nangis sikit tapi tak jadi nangis sebab nurses nanti pandang ee mcm drama la sangat kan so cover la kit hehe and some of friends already asking which ward I have been admitted cause they intended to come. Agagaga I feel blessed. A. LOT. Thank you Allah for grant me good friends and family!!!

I also very grateful because being in hospital ward equals to “you can eat what you crave for” hahaha because my parents keep feeding me like sacks of food to make sure I gained enough energy and strong to fight back haha they kept asking me what I would love to have for dinner lunch and etc. And I once answered for chocolate…………………….they bought chocolates for breakfast lunch dinner for everyday in the ward :’’’’) sampai dah keluar wad pun banyak coklat tak makan lagi dekat dalam peti sejuk haha! Mom and Dad are the best! Mweh! I asked for Nasi Goreng from my brother at 9pm and we also have hospital light dinner atm yay! I started to think you really don’t need to get worry of eating a lot kalau you sakit haha the feeling is surreal, I even regret my previous days when I was on my diet sebab I don’t take carbs and sweets. Is that consider as factor of why im getting sick?! Hahahahha I hope it wasn’t!

Besides, my two clingy girlfriends also served me best. Mula mula they acted like tak jadi datang sebab ada hal bla bla and it really disappoint me sebab yah?? I waited for them tau??? Pastu tetibe dh nak dekat maghrib tu terkedek kedek ketuk pintu bawak makanan macam nak gi berkelah, Izzah baked me Puding Roti and Aissyah ordered Oreo Cream Puffs with chicken wings, pizzas, hundred plus, caramel lava cakes and else……………..Penat makan, penat gelak, thank you girls! Walaupun they spent the night bullying me in the ward, playing with the remote katil, remote tv, langsir and all the hospital stuffs……..ya allah kenapala ada kawan mcm ni. Not to forget, my closest homeroomate paid a visit too! With my fav choc brand, Ritter Sport (sumpah nak nangis agagaga coklat tu kalau beli dekat Jaya Grocer dahlah RM11 agagaga baiknyaaa) and another great chocolates! My life dkt ward is full of chocolates hahahah! Thank you everyone including Nadira, mak Nadira who baked cheese tart and cookies, Pokdek who just came to insult me takleh lawan nyamuk bla bla, Cik Anom, Aunt and semualaaaaaaaaaa kawan kawan dan sedara ahahaha I just realized, my life is just wonderful, God lend me good people with lovely attitudes masyaAllah nikmat mana lagi yang nak didustakan. And yeah, for my favourite person too, who is far away from me but always got his phone to connect and waiting for all the updates, thank you for your concern! May God bless!

With that, I end everything here. Alhamdulillah.

Last words, do take care of your health!! And kalau ada craving apa apa and you are on your diet, just go against the rule, makan je selagi sihat okay!! BANYAKKAN MINUM AIR, don’t take this for granted hehe, be happy always and bersyukur dengan apa yang kita ada, we may not see what we have because we are busy looking into another things that we tend to chase but the reality that served us at the moment is all we need hehe stay tune, bye xx